I stand at a threshold in my life, one I know so many other people have stood at – looking back at 3 decades of life (thanks to all that have been there, even the obnoxious ones) and looking forward with my physical eyes to at least another 5 decades (Insha Allah) and with my spirit, to an eternity.
The cracks of degradation of my physical body are beginning to show (I can no longer work for 48 hours without sleep) and rather than cling to the vanishing sands of my past and youth, I must now make the decision to either embrace the winds of the future, or languish in fires of regrets of what could have been in the house of yesterday. A transformation is going on …whether I choose to accept it or not. I make the choice to accept it and intentionally make what ever adaptations I must make in other that this transformation be one that will bring me and those around me more peace, more love and more fulfillment.
Part of that transformation will be to give up the ‘glory’ of youth for that of old men, and to do this I must transform or let be transformed :
- Youthful strength into strength of character.
- Reliance on my intellect into knowing by intuition and awareness.
- Desires to make myself better into a yearning to serve others and make another life better.
- The need to take into a desire to share and give.
- Independence in for interdependence.
I know it is a journey and it won’t be easy, but it is a journey I must make – one I have chosen to make because I KNOW that it is one filled with reward … I cannot lose and there is ultimately only happiness and peace on that path.
Thus, as I thread this path of light, I pray that a life of discipline, of learning, of service, and of contribution will bear the fruits some of which I have always desired but never had: Patience | Selflessness | Spontaneity | Presence | Silence | Oneness with God.
This I wish myself, every moment …and I wish it to you too.